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i hate him .. hate ..hate .. n hate .. dis person --------->> r**** j***** .. i f***in' hate dis bastard .. dah laa dah kawin .. ko nak ape lagi dr aku ..?? ..semak2 ..sibuk2 tgk friendster aku ..

miskol2 ..konon slh dial .. bodohlah ..

This stupid bastard is dat type yg kiss & tell ..bloody m********ker ..in fact up until now eventho he knows me and boyfie coupled he never even let me live peacefully .. ko tau kan kepala otak aku ni tak bleh semak dgn byg2 palsu ko tu ..kenapa ko still lg nk hegeh2 kat aku ..ape mslh ko?? .. sedarlah sket .. u're married, dh ada anak pun .. i tau ..i pun salah jugak .. but please ..super please ..let it go .. dulu janji forgive & forget .. but wut u txt me on 23rd april morning ..?? .. just woke up .. tlg laa ..i never trust u ok?? .. and i don't have the faith tht u're supporting me & boyfie .. i dunno wut u told him .. but i know something darn fishy about u ..

eventho he's ur friend it doesn't mean it won't make any difference .. there's massive diffierence .. FYI!!! .. ko tak bleh ske2 hati ajak aku dis & that, hanky-panky .. than bila aku x setuju dgn idea bodoh kau tu .. directly ko bg tau boyfie ..mmg aku ngaku ..dia tak sehebat kau .. dia tak sesempurna kau .. tp hati dia lain dpd ko .. u got ur own agenda & issue ..dia naive .. n dia syg aku sbb aku ..bukan mcm kau!! ..u're using me for your own satisfaction ..aku perempuan gak, manusia ..ada hati & perasaan .. xtaulaa if ko binatang .. xde hati & perasaan ..tolonglaa ..respect me for who i am .. i senyap bukan maksud aku salah .. tp aku senyap sbb aku nk tgk sejauh mane ko bleh pergi .. n aku tak suka nk huru hara kan keadaan rumah tangga org ..u r the biggest hypocrite i ever know ..super bastard ...

g0 gReEn hUnt

Appreciate if anyone could join this .. It will be lotsa FUN!!

kRaBby pAtTy

I always wanted to go to Krabi .. (I mean any beautiful sandy beaches in the world ..) ..

but i don't do snorkelling & diving .. sbb aku takut lemas and aku cepat dapat panic-attack .. i think becos of greenery + blueish color where i find my strength in between. i love nature ..

hmm lama dh kumpul duit .. bulan 10 ni boleh laa pg .. i planned to go on 8/10 - 12/10 .. inclusive tix & everything for 2 person will be RM 1259.30 .. hotel will be red ginger .. nice chic hotel ----- nice & chic ...

i'd browse to some of the web to browse things that i can do around Krabi .. There's more than what i expected .. I would list few things here and will update with more :

1 . Than Bok Khoraine National Park : i can stay for a night here. camping i shud say ..

2 . Rock Climbing : Famous for this ..

3. Kon Lanta Marine National Park : rainforest is almost untouched and leftovers protected

4 . Excursion to Watt ham Seua : Buddha's footprint.

5 . Shell Fossil Cemetery : see this billion years fossils ..

6 . Island Hopping : the best thing will happen again

what i would value the most when i go to any places around the world is the memory .. i went to phuket last year Oct 2008 .. it was tremendously fun .. thailand famous for it's land of body & flashes as well as shemale, ladyboy & name wutever u want .. we got to watch the ladyboy show which was absolutely entertaining .. and i don't think we can see this in Malaysia except at the Lorong H*** T*** selling things .. over there.. they are very talented, imitating famous faces, dancing and acting .. and not to forget .. beautiful ..hahah ..

me & boyfie had a different idea of vacation .. he prefers with whom he'll be going and that will be more fun if it is with the person he loves. while me .. i really value the memory regardless with whom i'll be going but yeah of cos the fun the circle the more u'll enjoy the holiday ..we seldom argue about this...

p/s : i'll do some posting for my Phuket Trip ...in future ..

my intepretation ..

kalau jumpa mesti nak gadoh ..gadoh ..gadoh n gadoh .. sampai aku letih .. there's some quote saying .. " to be happy with a woman, u have to love them & to be happy with a man u have to understand them .." .. tp aku rase aku dgn dia ni mcm terbalik .. he have to understand me n i have to love him .. he loves me too much .. rasa kdg2 dia mcm PDA pun ade, while i'm yg heartless ni terkebil2 ..bukan aku tak sayang tp ... hmmm ... affection is great, but we need a little space ..

All i ever wanted u to do is to understand .. i might not be that super-perfect miss world to demand this and that from u .. but things that i said & do there's reason ..
tak tahu lah mane silap .. but i just not fit yet to be somebody in your life .. to be in your circle .. i'm just not ready .. might Be i'm too demanding, stubborn, ego & snobbish maybe?? ..

Eversince our last fight on 27/05/2009 .. from that day on .. i knew what is in your mind, wut u had been thinking about me .. but i'm keeping that to myself .. i'll wait & see .. how far things will go n evaluate my weakness.. you will walk away someday .. i believe that ..

It's Monday ...

Hmm .. boring duduk office ni .. my collegue is away .. ada i******* .. so i'm sitting alone at this messy desk .. work piling up mcm nak gila but i have no intention to clear it, at an instant ..

boss is in the office, search for jawatan kosong .. heheh .. aiming for project engineer tak tau laa dapat ke tak ..jgn ada yg offer for customer support engineer a.k.a customer service a.k.a GRO .... (hahah ..kot lebih kurang! hah ..) ..i'm not interested with dis type of job entertaining people cus i dun't entertain myself either .. rather spending the whole weekend ..duduk dkt rumah, kemas rumah .. dvd marathon (i dun watch TV, ok??) ..basuh baju .. read books and swimming kat pool bawah tu ..

dlm kepala otak tak dapat nk fikir ape2 ..perasaan keliru, resah gelisah .. berkecamuk .. tak tau lg how 2 spill it out .. i dun now if i ever fit enough to be anybody's wife .. but i think i had done very well living as a single lady .. entahlah .. orang cakap .. "nasib perempuan ni kalau nk tgk lepas kahwin.." what if i met with the wrong person .. who promised me all the diamonds & pearls but he actually can't afford it ..?? Promise makes me sick ..promise makes me scared of life .. n i shouldn't ever fall for it .. just have to keep on living and ensure dat u able to stand on your own ...